worlds apart

it's been a minute.

so much has happened and changed.  i've been busy.  and so not busy.

i've stared at the snow falling for hours, in front of my fire, not moving from my seat on my couch.  i've laid in bed and watched the light change in my bedroom until it was fully day.  i've sat on the bus, watching the trees turn into apartments, then warehouses, oil fields, and skyscrapers.  i've never felt so present and grounded.

i'm really proud to have found the elusive seat of my soul, planted my ass in it, and stayed there.  the last couple of months have brought a revolving door of dates, good and bad, and the most unexpected reentry of a flame that I guess never fully went out.  it's been a little hectic, and yet i never got up once.  the feeling of being fully wrapped in myself is indescribable.

its incredible what happens when you ask the universe to take your world apart.  to give you what you want, and not ask how you'll get there.  she exceeds expectations every time.

i've been through a lot in the last year.  i'm not without troubles.  but the joy and peace i feel now is constant.  i'm so, so lucky.